Educating you on the goods and the bads of this lifestyle is very important to us and so when one of our lovely readers reached out and wanted to share her experience with submissiveness and the danger it can sometimes bring when we open ourselves up to cuckolding. We hope you enjoy it!
Hey everyone, I wanted to get this off of my chest, they say sharing a problem makes you feel better and at this point, I am trying to take all of the help I can get to try and help me out of this strange situation. Once you have read my ‘big mistake’ I would appreciate any feedback or advice you could give me, I have spoken to Jack and Sarah extensively about it and I still am unsure about what I should do.
I Have A Submissive Husband
I love him and he is my perfect emotional fit, but he doesn’t have a backbone and this has made me lose sexual attraction to him. I am just being truthful, he wasn’t always like this though.
I’m not sure what happened to his backbone, his brother and his dad have real masculine traits and my husband used too, but the past few years he has just lost that flair.
We have spoken about cuckolding before as he told me he had an interest in it a few years ago and it’s come up even more since he has become way more submissive but I know I would be doing it just to fuck someone else at this point not to actually fulfill a fantasy. The idea of cuckolding has floated around our relationship for years and if we were to fix these issues I would be really open to trying it out. We have come really close to in the past but never properly acted upon it and now with my husband’s new attitude, I doubt I could ever do it with someone so submissive.
My husband and I are like best friends and I’d never want to lose him, but…
I Just Needed My Fix In The Bedroom
I wanted to be fucked hard and have some control taken away from me, by a real masculine man. I was fantasizing about fucking someone else all of the time, thinking about having them fuck me as I had never been fucked before. I was having dreams where I was fucking these men, I was daydreaming about it and even masturbating about it too. I knew I needed something to change drastically, my body was literally begging me for it.
I Decided To Tell My Bestfriend About His Submissiveness
I told her everything, explaining how unhappy I was and how we had been talking about cuckolding for months but now it was if I had made up my mind and gone behind his back with my fantasies. My best friend sat me down and she told me to go to find a random guy who matched what I was looking for and have some fun, nothing sexual just fun.
She made a whole plan and she downloaded Tinder on my phone.
I started talking to a really hot guy and we arranged a date, I kept texting him and flirting for the rest of the week. It was so exciting and he seemed so perfect for me when it came to the bedroom, it was dominant and he wanted to put me in my place. I had tingles whenever our chat got sexually heated and I even knew that if I told my husband what I was doing he wouldn’t care because he had become so passive and submissive.
I wanted this to be the start of our cuckolding dreams but it couldn’t be because I was going behind his back and he was just so passive about everything. We were all meeting for a few drinks and a bit of a flirt anyway, I didn’t need to tell my husband anything.
I Had A ‘Girly night’ at my friend’s house
I told my husband that I was going to my friend’s house for a girly night of movies and drinks, the first part was true, I was going to my friend’s house it’s just wasn’t exactly for a girly night in.
As I left I felt slightly guilty but then it all disappeared when I remembered how much I wanted this and how if it fixed my problems meeting this guy I could tell my husband and we could even start cuckolding if he just became a little bit less submissive, right?
He wouldn’t even need to know that I met someone else just to see if I had an urge in real life as he was too much of a pussy to fuck me properly, would he? These are the questions that plagued my mind.
It Was Time To Meet Him
My friend and I met this guy for drinks. It was great fun, we really hit it off and we had some great sexual chemistry after all of the flirtings we had been doing in the weeks leading up to this.
It was so much fun and we all got on so well, thoughts of my submissive husband had just melted from my mind. Part of me wondered if this was all part of a plan of his? Perhaps he was getting off knowing I wanted a real man to fuck me?
Going Back To My Friends House
I was just meant to go for drinks, but we started kissing when my friend went to use the bathroom and he started feeling me up right there at the table and my logical brain switched off and I just wanted to fuck him. I didn’t care if this was my husband’s plan all along, I didn’t care that I wasn’t supposed to be fucking him just having some fun, he was perfect for me at the time and I knew he was going to deliver in the bedroom.
When my friend came back from the bathroom, I was basically breathless, I asked my best friend if we could go back to her place for a while and she agreed, I don’t think she realized at the time it was for sex. Once we got into the taxi she could see we were all over one another and she tried tapping me, tried to make me sense but I just didn’t care.
Having Sex In Her Spare Room
We went straight to her spare room, I thanked her before rushing in and locking the door behind us.
We did everything.
He made me beg for his big cock, he controlled me and he even told me when to cum. He was totally dominating me, taking complete charge, and making me feel as if I was a complete submissive under his charm.
I’m not sure if it was the nerves or the adrenaline from fucking him and knowing that I was actually cheating on my husband for the first time in my life that made the sex so much better, but it was so orgasmic, I’ve never cum like it and I felt like every touch ran bolts of electricity through my body.
He was inflamed with desire too, fucking me with passion and dominance, taking charge, and letting his body do whatever it wanted.
He Left At 4 AM (Texts From My Submissive Hubby)
By 4 am we were both exhausted, the smell of sex filled the air and he needed to get home and so did I. My friend had long gone to bed and so we both tiptoed out of her house and went our separate ways. I don’t live far so I just ran home, my shoes in my hand and my panties rolled up inside of my purse. I felt like a teenager, it was thrilling.
I checked my phone as I ran and there was a text from my husband at 1 am telling me he loved me and that he hoped I was having a nice time with my friend. A pang of guilt washed over me but then I remembered the sex, the glorious sex, and I got shivers all of my pussy. Part of me wondered did my husband know? Was he getting off to it?
I Feel Really Guilty
I got home, showered, and got straight into bed. The next day my husband and I watched a movie, he then ordered me a lovely takeout and it was one of the nicest nights we had had in a long time. I felt so guilty I went to the bathroom and cried, it was awful.
But, the next day the guilt when a text popped through from this guy, I started texting him back and all of the feelings washed over me again. Making me so wet and horny.
I can’t stop sexting this guy, I love my husband so much, but I can’t live without experiencing the feelings I felt that night again. The cheating part has become a new fantasy for me, it’s a thrill and I love acting like the lonely housewife on her way to get fucked.
Can I Have A F**k Buddy And Stay Married?
I would really value your advice, just leave it in the comments below and I will be sure to read everything. Can you be married and have someone you fuck on the regular who fulfills your desires and fantasies?
Do I tell my husband and admit to him what I did and see if it leads us into the cuckold lifestyle?
What should I do?